在1/29受訪，大概聊了一下最近的心情。 “I feel like some of it got me. And I was coming out on these matches and there’s a little bit of tightness. Now all of a sudden I’m the favourite. I should be winning, so in my mind I’m thinking... you know, don’t lose. And it’s just like, everything just kind of tightens up and I’m not able to play as freely and as openly as I would like to. 我覺得在這些比賽中有一點緊繃，我忽然受到眾人的矚目，我想我應該要贏，所以我會想 著...你了解的，不要輸。 但這種感受讓人很緊繃，我無法自在的打球。 As a kid, I’ve dreamt of playing these tournaments and I kind of forgot that, I fell off that path. All of a sudden it just felt like work to me. It felt like expectations, you know pressure, all this. And I fell off the enjoyment part of it. Especially after Auckland, I told myself ‘you know what? Just screw everything. It doesn’t matter.’ I was trying to find the reason why I’m playing. Even the nerves, the excitement was different. I was going on the court more nervous, more tense... and in Australia I was like genuinely excited again to be on the court. 在我還小的時候，在各大巡迴賽比賽一直是我的夢想，但我有點忘記我這種感覺了，好像 偏離了這條路。好像變成了一份工作。 這些期望，有點像是壓力，我享受的一切好像有部分不見了。 尤其是奧克蘭之後，我告訴我自己：「你知道嘛？你要上緊所有的發條。沒關係的。」我 努力找尋我打球的理由。 我在球場上更緊張、更緊繃...在澳網時我非常興奮於重回球場。 All of sudden, I’m just looking at the matches different. I’m looking at tennis differently, and I’m looking at my whole career differently. So in that way I feel like I’ve grown as a player... and as a person.” 突然間我好像只是看著比賽，我看待網球的方式改變了，用不同的角度看待整個職業生涯。 所以我認為我成長成一個球員了...感覺自己長大成人了。 加油沙弟～～～眼淚都是成長的滋味呀（好想唱歌）。 其實不論如何，享受打球、身體健康才是真的，你要相信在太平洋的某個小島上有不少人 默默支持著你、喜歡著你呀XDDD，愛是不求回報的。 Be yourself. --

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