在1/29受访，大概聊了一下最近的心情。 “I feel like some of it got me. And I was coming out on these matches and there’s a little bit of tightness. Now all of a sudden I’m the favourite. I should be winning, so in my mind I’m thinking... you know, don’t lose. And it’s just like, everything just kind of tightens up and I’m not able to play as freely and as openly as I would like to. 我觉得在这些比赛中有一点紧绷，我忽然受到众人的瞩目，我想我应该要赢，所以我会想 着...你了解的，不要输。 但这种感受让人很紧绷，我无法自在的打球。 As a kid, I’ve dreamt of playing these tournaments and I kind of forgot that, I fell off that path. All of a sudden it just felt like work to me. It felt like expectations, you know pressure, all this. And I fell off the enjoyment part of it. Especially after Auckland, I told myself ‘you know what? Just screw everything. It doesn’t matter.’ I was trying to find the reason why I’m playing. Even the nerves, the excitement was different. I was going on the court more nervous, more tense... and in Australia I was like genuinely excited again to be on the court. 在我还小的时候，在各大巡回赛比赛一直是我的梦想，但我有点忘记我这种感觉了，好像 偏离了这条路。好像变成了一份工作。 这些期望，有点像是压力，我享受的一切好像有部分不见了。 尤其是奥克兰之後，我告诉我自己：「你知道嘛？你要上紧所有的发条。没关系的。」我 努力找寻我打球的理由。 我在球场上更紧张、更紧绷...在澳网时我非常兴奋於重回球场。 All of sudden, I’m just looking at the matches different. I’m looking at tennis differently, and I’m looking at my whole career differently. So in that way I feel like I’ve grown as a player... and as a person.” 突然间我好像只是看着比赛，我看待网球的方式改变了，用不同的角度看待整个职业生涯。 所以我认为我成长成一个球员了...感觉自己长大成人了。 加油沙弟～～～眼泪都是成长的滋味呀（好想唱歌）。 其实不论如何，享受打球、身体健康才是真的，你要相信在太平洋的某个小岛上有不少人 默默支持着你、喜欢着你呀XDDD，爱是不求回报的。 Be yourself. --

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