Puncture (穿刺) 詞曲：碘化鉀 http://youtu.be/7b7ZyZR9294 You gave me so many chances And you were there to take it all You told me it was alright When I wrecked through that wall And I don't think I deserve 'Cause who am I? to load my pain onto your forgiving ambiguitiy Who am I? to leave you here to suffer from my immaturity And I don't deserve I don't deserve I wasted so many chances I wasted all your trust And I don't know how you could take it And I'm the one feeling so crushed I don't think I deserve... 'Cause who am I? to load my pain onto your forgiving ambiguitiy Who am I? to leave you here to suffer from my immaturity Who am I? to hurt you deep when you offered me that opportunity Who am I? to bear the faith that I won't cause another tragedy And you didn't even fight back... No, I don't deserve ====================================================================== 寫這首歌的時候其實心情有點沉重... 上個月在病房，抽動脈血的時候失敗了 不小心把阿伯的血管戳成一包血腫 隔天去看變成好大一塊烏青 結果隔天抽，還是失敗 由於我的技術生疏，導致阿伯變成兩邊都瘀青... 阿伯年紀很大了 因為多次的中風，所以神智不是很清楚 因為肺部感染呼吸不太順 (這也是為什麼要抽動脈血的原因) 所以也無法說話、或表達任何的不舒服 再加上家人平常都沒有陪在身邊，只有一位外勞照顧 讓他變成了很適合新手實習生的練習對象... 不只是動脈血 在練習所有的技術時，其實都難免會發生一些錯誤或失敗 我想，沒有人是不經失敗就能熟練的 就像學習任何東西一樣 但是在試誤學習的過程中，總會傷害一些人 不管是被多扎一針的病人 被我浪費時間還得扛責任的學長姐 甚至是必須忍受我的低氣壓和沮喪的戀人和朋友... 我有什麼資格這樣傷害他們? 他們有什麼義務要忍受我的不成熟? 我到底是誰呀? 能夠要求別人為了我的成長而這樣犧牲嗎? 陷入這種想法的無限迴圈時真的很難受... --

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