Puncture (穿刺) 词曲：碘化钾 http://youtu.be/7b7ZyZR9294 You gave me so many chances And you were there to take it all You told me it was alright When I wrecked through that wall And I don't think I deserve 'Cause who am I? to load my pain onto your forgiving ambiguitiy Who am I? to leave you here to suffer from my immaturity And I don't deserve I don't deserve I wasted so many chances I wasted all your trust And I don't know how you could take it And I'm the one feeling so crushed I don't think I deserve... 'Cause who am I? to load my pain onto your forgiving ambiguitiy Who am I? to leave you here to suffer from my immaturity Who am I? to hurt you deep when you offered me that opportunity Who am I? to bear the faith that I won't cause another tragedy And you didn't even fight back... No, I don't deserve ====================================================================== 写这首歌的时候其实心情有点沉重... 上个月在病房，抽动脉血的时候失败了 不小心把阿伯的血管戳成一包血肿 隔天去看变成好大一块乌青 结果隔天抽，还是失败 由於我的技术生疏，导致阿伯变成两边都瘀青... 阿伯年纪很大了 因为多次的中风，所以神智不是很清楚 因为肺部感染呼吸不太顺 (这也是为什麽要抽动脉血的原因) 所以也无法说话、或表达任何的不舒服 再加上家人平常都没有陪在身边，只有一位外劳照顾 让他变成了很适合新手实习生的练习对象... 不只是动脉血 在练习所有的技术时，其实都难免会发生一些错误或失败 我想，没有人是不经失败就能熟练的 就像学习任何东西一样 但是在试误学习的过程中，总会伤害一些人 不管是被多扎一针的病人 被我浪费时间还得扛责任的学长姐 甚至是必须忍受我的低气压和沮丧的恋人和朋友... 我有什麽资格这样伤害他们? 他们有什麽义务要忍受我的不成熟? 我到底是谁呀? 能够要求别人为了我的成长而这样牺牲吗? 陷入这种想法的无限回圈时真的很难受... --

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