My childhood was a memory full of physical chasing and endless fun of playing, back then I used to think that the entire human civilization and its continuity could not be possible without letting people at their childhood enjoy as much fun as they could. Reading, on contrary to playing had been my biggest problem since I became a student (It is until now I realize that I had spent more than 20 years being a student). Unfortunately, I was not able to appreciate the value and preciousness of simply sitting down with words composed to enlighten, to entertain, and to provoke imagination among us. Later in my school days, as what it was expected to facilitate us in passing the avalanches of testes everyday, reading had also become distasteful and routine to me. Whatever classes I was in, I didn’t feel intrigued nor focused, I was simply craving for the drastic physical competition in the field where I knew I was capable of performing something dazzling, something that would make people who see me drop their jaw. I was an outstanding athlete who played almost all kinds of sports. To be a good, silent and a memorizing machine of books was really not my style. So there went away most my essence of time in my adolescence disbelieving that words do possess power, and lay the possibility of miracles. Alas, how naive I was to believe that my physical superiority bred in my childhood could give me the advantages wherever I go; I was really stupid. What I could not know before I met library had ingeniously offered an alternative of my future, an alternative that I had never realized that I had. I was a son of a farmer who sees phrases such as dream, future, or hope of as much importance as that of a comic book to a child. How much could anyone expect me to achieve? Nevertheless, the grandeur and its nobility of library spoke an odd language to me when I first saw it. The odd tone spoke so rightfully so gracefully and naturally as if it succeeded all the mysteries and knowledge from the beginning of time. Gradually, I was led by the voice into the library. There, I for the first time in my life sensed my insignificance in the entire universe and how absurd my “physical superiority” was in front of the omnipresence of my own mortality. There I found that my curiosity became an untamed horse yielding to gallop, and I knew that the intensity of it won’t ease unless the curiosity is fed with freshness of knowledge constantly. There, what I last figured out is that I was never a loner and my own miseries were nothing but shadow and dust that are bound to perish. --

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