Curt Schilling has a new lease on life http://t.co/cRGEAreATw 太长了，分两篇推出 (剩下的明天或後天翻) KISSIMMEE, Fla. — Curt Schilling sits calmly in Champions Stadium as the lightning flashes and the thunder rumbles around him. The Mass Drifters, the Massachusetts state champion girls’ under-16 fast-pitch softball team that he coaches, are facing elimination in a USSSA World Series II tournament game when the rains came. But that’s the least of his problems. 在闪电交加的一日，Curt Schilling静静的坐在Champions Stadium。Mass Drifters─ Schilling执教的麻州U-16女子快垒冠军队─在USSSA World Series II中面临淘汰。不过 这不算什麽大问题。 His wife, Shonda, still worries about the stress caused by the failure of his 38 Studios venture. Schilling的老婆Shonda依然担心投资38 Studios失败对Schilling的压力。 “I don’t know how somebody would not kill himself, honestly, over what he has had to endure,” she says. 「说真的我不知道人怎麽能承受那种压力而不自残。」Shonda表示。 The Schillings say they have lost almost everything. Even the bloody sock the former Red Sox pitcher wore in the 2004 postseason has been sold. Schilling夫妇表示他们失去了一切，就连2004年的血袜都卖掉了。 It’s not worth having a heart attack over, a visitor tells him. 一位访客表示心脏病发结束一切是不值得的。 “Uh, I already did, actually,” says Schilling. “Yeah, I did, a couple of years ago. Nobody knows that, actually.” 「呃，事实上我有过心脏病发。」Schilling表示：「是的，两年前。不过没人知道。」 A mild one? 轻微的？ “It was a decent one,” he says. “It’s not something . . .” 「很重大的一次，不是那种...」 His voice trails off and his eyes dart around Champions Stadium. 他的声音突然降低，眼睛朝Champions Stadium四周望去。 “I had one, and it was dealt with.” 「那次我很痛苦。」 Schilling’s father died of a massive stroke right in front of him when he was just 21. Schilling 21岁时，他的父亲在他面前严重中风。 “Outside of, like, personal family — losing my dad — it was the most devastating thing I’ve ever gone through,” he says, “and it’s still something I’m trying to bounce back from. 「除了家庭部分─失去父亲之外─这次的事件是我遇过最可怕的事情，我就连现在还在试 着走出这个阴霾。」 “It was so hard, because I had pushed and pushed and pushed. I had 300 families [of company employees] I had to take care of, including my own, and it failed. 「这很难熬，因为我一直努力、努力，我有300多个家庭要顾─包含我自己的─但我失败 了。」 “And I’ve lost a lot in my life but I’ve never failed at anything. I was going to [win] but I couldn’t get it done.” 「我不常失败，但我失去了人生中的很多东西。我试着赢下来但无法圆满完成。」 Schilling, 46, later said that he wishes he hadn’t mentioned the heart attack. He knows this will be news, and he is reluctant to go into details about it. 46岁的Schilling接着提到他很後悔说出心脏病这件事，因为他知道这一定会成为新闻， 所以他不太愿意提供进一步的细节。 “I was in New York with my wife, who was running the New York Marathon,” he said by cellphone while traveling. “I was watching it and I had chest pains." Schilling在通话中告诉记者：「老婆在纽约跑马拉松，我去陪她。我一直看马拉松，然 後感觉胸口痛痛的。」 Shonda ran a 4:58:50 in the New York City Marathon on Nov. 6, 2011. Schilling says he waited for her to finish, despite the discomfort he was in. 虽然身体不适，但Schilling还是等到她结束比赛。Shonda总共跑了4:58:50。 “I didn’t think it was anything serious,” he says. 「我当时不认为那很严重。」 They flew back to Boston and went straight from Logan Airport to a Boston hospital, where doctors were waiting for him. No ambulance. Schilling夫妇飞回Boston後，从Logan Airport直奔等在医院的医生─但不是坐救护车。 “Ya, as stupid as that was,” Schilling wrote in a text message. “My doctor made it clear that I was very, very, lucky.” Schilling在简讯提到：「嗯，笨极了。医生说的很清楚：我非常、非常的幸运。」 Surgery was performed the next day to insert a stent. The health scare, he says, changed his lifestyle. 隔天动手术放入支架。这次的惊魂记改变了他的生活方式。 “Oh yeah, in every way possible, it had to,” he says, without going into detail. 「各种可能改变的都改了─我必须这麽做。」(但没有透露细节) He wouldn’t totally blame the heart attack on stress related to 38 Studios — the video game company went bankrupt seven months later — but, he says, “I ’m sure that was part of it.” Schilling不会把错全推到38 Studios事件上，不过他表示多少有关系。 Though Curt says, “It was an event and we dealt with it; I’m good,” Shonda says there are still lingering issues. 虽然Schilling表示他们正在解决这件事，Shonda表示那还是个棘手的问题。 “I still worry because he has to let the guilt go,” she says. “You cannot be hit with that many things and not have it affect you, I don’t care who it is.” 「我还是很担心他，他得放掉心中的罪恶感。不管是谁都没办法遭受那麽多打击还可以不 受影响。」 Bitter feelings remain In 2010, Rhode Island issued $75 million in bonds so that 38 Studios could relocate to Providence, create jobs, and produce state-of-the-art fantasy games. But the company declared bankruptcy in June 2012. Schilling lost nearly $50 million of his own money, 300 employees lost their jobs, and Rhode Island taxpayers lost an estimated $100 million. 2010年，罗德岛借贷$75M给38 Studios─创造最先进游戏的公司─迁移到罗德岛创造工作 机会。很不幸的，公司在2012年六月面临破产，Schilling烧掉了$50M、300人失去工作， 罗德岛也用掉了$100M的税金。 “It was probably the first time he ever failed at anything,” says Shonda. “ I never saw him so beaten.” Shonda：「这大概是我第一次看到他失败，我从没看过他失败的这麽惨。」 Shonda was never in favor of launching the company, either. 但Shonda一直不支持创立公司的想法。 “I fought it, fought it, fought it, and then this happened,” she says. “So he thinks I’m going to say, ‘I told you so.’ 「我一直反对、反对、反对，但是事情还是发生了。他大概觉得我会跟他说『就跟你说 了。』」 “Had I not seen him the way he was, then I would’ve. To see somebody down that low, you can’t kick him.” 「如果我没看到他的样子，或许会那样说。看到他荡到谷底的样子，我没办法再踢他一 脚。」 She says coaching softball has been his savior. “This is a great distraction for him,” she says. “It has given him purpose." Shonda表示担任垒球队教练有些帮助，「让他把心思放在其他地方，也给他了新目标。」 But even as Schilling sits in the stands and watches the rumbling skies, sadness seeps into his voice when the subject of 38 Studios is broached. 不过就连Schilling坐在观众席、看着天空时，38 Studios的失败所造成的悲伤依然能从 他的声音感受到。 “It’s still raw for me,” he says. “It’s a tough thing to talk about. There was so much it could’ve been. 「我还是不习惯，我很难去谈论这件事情。有太多『原本』可以做的。」 “I wanted to open up the Shonda Schilling ALS Research Clinic, the Grant Schilling Autism Camp, things that take tens of millions of dollars to do. That was my shot at doing that, and it didn’t work out. 「我想要创立Shonda Schilling ALS(肌萎缩性脊髓侧索硬化症)研究中心、Grant Schilling自闭症营，那些都要上千万的经费才能运转。那是我做这些事的机会，但是现 在失败了。」 “But ultimately, it’s on me. I was the guy. At the end of the day, it failed because I failed to raise outside capital.” 「但是总结来说，责任在我。失败的芸因出在我无法募集外面的资金。」 According to Schilling, Rhode Island Governor Lincoln Chafee did “absolutely nothing” to prevent 38 Studios from closing. 根据Schilling的说法，罗德岛州长Lincoln Chafee「完全没有任何阻止38 Studios倒闭 的行动。」 “We had a local investor who was going to pony up the money — he wanted us to do some things — and Chafee just waited us out,” says Schilling. 「有个当地的投资主有意愿支付资金，他想要看到我们有所行动，而Chafee眼睁睁的看我 们倒掉。」 Chafee has said that he did not want to put good money after bad. But Schilling says the state, as the second-largest investor after himself, had a responsibility to help the venture succeed. Chafee表示他不想把大笔钱砸进烂摊，不过Schilling的声明指出，身为第二大的投资者 ，有责任维持企业成功运转。 “Name one thing he actually did,” he says. “Ask him that.” 「讲出他真正做过的事啊，去问他。」Schilling表示。 Faye Zuckerman, Chafee’s deputy press secretary, said in a telephone interview, “Due to the pending litigation, Governor Chafee is unable to provide comment.” Chafee的副新闻秘书Faye Zuckerman在电话访谈中表示「诉讼中，不予置评。」 Schilling knows that people don’t want to hear him whine. Schilling也知道大家不想听他抱怨。 “The last thing a citizen of Rhode Island wants to hear is a [expletive] millionaire ballplayer blaming the state,” he says. 「罗德岛市民最不想听到的就是一个他妈的赚了上百万的棒球选手在这边怪他们的州怎 样。」 Schilling, who is now an analyst for ESPN, and who has raised millions for ALS research, is not trying to resurrect his image, either. 现职ESPN评论员、同时募上百万ALS研究资金的Schilling也表示他没兴趣拯救形象。 “The people that hate me, there’s nothing I can say or do to get them to like me,” he says. “I’ve never stolen. I’ve never hit my wife. I’ve never driven drunk. I’ve never taken steroids. I’ve never done cocaine. I’ ve never beat my wife, beat my kids. 「说什麽、做什麽都不会让讨厌我的人改变心意。我不偷不抢、不打老婆、不酒醉驾车、 不吃类固醇、不嗑古柯硷。我不打老婆小孩。」 “I’ve never done any of the stuff that a lot of people are all about getting second chances for. 「我从没做那些像很多人得找寻二次机会的事情。」 “I’ve made a ton of mistakes — a ton of mistakes — but none of them have ever been malicious, mean-spirited, or angry in an effort to ruin somebody. 「我犯了很多错，但都不是那些坏心、恶劣，或是盛怒之下毁掉别人生命的事情。」 “That doesn’t mean I’m perfect. Far from it. I’ve got a big mouth and I don’t know when to shut up and I’ll give you my opinion on anything. But I know I’m not a bad dude.” 「这不代表我很完美─差多了。我嘴巴很大，不知何时该闭嘴，会评论所有事情。但我知 道我不是坏胚子。」 (未完待续...) -- ＊Athletic frame. ＊High baseball IQ. Xander ＊Smooth, fluid swing. Bogaerts ＊Elite batspeed. #01 ＊Strong and explosive hands. ＊Above-average-to-better power ceiling, potential 30 home run bat. --

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