Prayer Kim Addonizio Sometimes, when we’re lying after love, I look at you and see your body’s future of lying beneath the earth; putting the heel of my hand against your rib I feel how faint and far away the heartbeat is. I rest my cheek against your left nipple and listen to the surge of blood, seeing your life splashed out, filmy water hurled from a pot onto dry grass. And I want to be pressed deep into the bed and covered over, the way a seed is pressed into a hole, the dirt tamped down with a trowel. I want to be a failed seed, the kind that doesn’t grow, that doesn’t know it’s meant to. I want to lie here without moving, lifeless as an animal that’s slaughtered, its blood smeared on a doorpost, I want death to take me if it has to, to spare you, I want it to pass over. -- p2: defenestrate --

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