作者sakai216 (Rachel)
看板bi-sexual
標題[心情] lost?
時間Wed Dec 10 20:28:18 2008
Do I really understand myself?
I thought it's just an infatuation...
I thought I was just too bored to have this kinda thoughts..
well....what I thought was wrong....
I realized that I was trying to get away from the feeling about her..
I realized that I didn't want to admit this kind of feeling...
I kinda convinced myself that I was not really into her...
that it's just....the desire of having a good friend like her...
but...today when I saw her and heard her again, I couldn't help stop
thinking of her, I couldn't take my mind off her...
When she asked me to come to help with their radio recording,
I'd really love to say yes....but ...I dont know why I refused...
I said "...hmm..I got sth else to do..."
What a big dumb excuse..= =
Was I trying to test her feeling about me?
hahaha...NO!!!.that would never happen to me....
I am never so lucky ...
God...~_~....I still dont wanna admit that I am in love...with her. o.o
>"<....please...get out of my mind, I dont wanna think of you anymore...
I need to get on my study....
>"<......help me ~~!!! ...lol...I want to go to Sydney right now >"<...
That's where I would meet my Mr. Right ~_~...
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1F：推 HAKUSENSHA:Maybe time will answer your question. 12/10 22:39
2F：推 ryusai:....慘了，英文程度不好的我只想叫"阿鬼...你還是..." 12/10 23:41
3F：→ sakai216:i always thought so..that time would answer my 12/11 00:29
4F：→ sakai216:question, but I never got the answer as time goes by. 12/11 00:29
5F：→ sakai216:=.=誰是阿鬼？我不是，只是覺得打英文比較好講 12/11 00:30
6F：推 ZoeMaCherie:I used to think that answer will come in time, but 12/11 01:03
7F：→ ZoeMaCherie:it never did. Or when it did, it was always way 12/11 01:03
8F：→ ZoeMaCherie:too late to be of any good. Cheers, hon. 12/11 01:04
9F：推 Amibi:可能是段還在認同中的過程，別心急。 12/11 01:29
10F：推 march501:對啊，別心急，除非她常常出現在你自慰時，是妳性幻想的 12/11 08:56
11F：→ march501:對象，那時才要煩惱這個問題 12/11 08:56
12F：→ sakai216:lol...出現在你自慰時...>.<我很純真的...還不到這種想法 12/11 14:44
13F：→ sakai216:i just want to be with her and talk to her... 12/11 14:46
14F：→ sakai216:when she's not around, i feel lonely and bored... 12/11 14:48
15F：→ sakai216:and...~_~u r right Zoe, everytime when I realized 12/11 14:50
16F：→ sakai216:what I truly felt about that person, it was too late. 12/11 14:50
17F：→ sakai216:coz he's left me ... 12/11 14:51
18F：推 march501:自慰和純真有什麼關係 = =? 我聽過一個說法是~檢測是否 12/11 16:01
19F：→ march501:對某人很有感覺，很想和對方進一步時，通常會出現在性幻 12/11 16:01
20F：→ march501:想的時候…身體感受反映了心靈的慾望，愛也是有慾望的 12/11 16:02
21F：→ march501:跟純不純真沒有關係= = 12/11 16:02
22F：→ march501:因為有時候是自己太美化對方，只是沈迷在一種暗戀的幻覺 12/11 16:03
23F：→ march501:中，並不真的想和對方怎麼樣，只是剛好他or她在你某個時 12/11 16:03
24F：→ march501:刻某個心境中，恰巧讓你有戀愛的感覺…maybe 吧~~我也不 12/11 16:04
25F：→ march501:不很確認 12/11 16:04
26F：→ sakai216::D,...恩恩恩！就是這樣就是這樣...非常同意你最後3句 12/11 18:02
27F：→ sakai216:也許就像你說的，我只是沉迷在一種暗戀的幻覺中.... 12/11 18:03
28F：推 march501:哦~~那也蠻美的耶~~~~感覺不錯，有點心痛有點悶又甜美 12/11 19:28
29F：推 Krissy:我覺得暗戀的對象出現在夢裡(可能是春夢)或性幻想裡可能是 12/13 15:59
30F：→ Krissy:個判準的依據哦~暗戀感覺有點澀澀的，但卻也很美好呢！ 12/13 16:02