Good evening! Happy New Year! Today is the traditional Chinese New Year's day of the daughters coming back to the parents that give birth to. So we are celebrating Chinese New Year's 2nd day. I have no idea about what Seven is doing, but I think that he might comsider that I am annoying. He is not my friend. So he won't be interested in chatting with me. I apologize! Cosmo is staying at home in Mid-Taiwan. He's in YunLin. He is with his parents and relatives. I feel happy for him! I bought a series of the drawings of line. It is about the golden light puppetry. I bought it because Cosmo loves to watch the series of golden light puppetry. But Cosmo told me that he doesn't like it very much and he just watches it at some time. So I feel sad that I bought the wrong drawings of the line. I feel sorry! Cosmo is the man that is always there. He companies me for more than 5 years. Frankly speaking, I feel embarrassed and shamful that I feel interested in Seven. It is kinda having relationship in between 2 persons at the same time. (Cosmo never has relationship with me. We even haven't touched each other's hands.) (Seven of course doesn't have any relationship with me. We're ex-colleagues.) I feel that I am lascivious, lustful and horny. I love both of them at the same time. I have left USA electronics corporation from August last year. I want to cut down all of the connections and the possible contact with Seven. I am afraid that my will will be not firm. However, I still write emails and send text to Seven every day. I am a goat! I cannot control my desire. Cosmo has companied me for 5 years. He's single. Seven denies to be my friend. He's married. What should I do? How can I say obviously? I hate that Seven refuses me in public. He made me shameful. But I miss him a lot! I cannot stop writing emails to him! But I have Cosmo. Oops!!!! I am lustful! Stop!!! Happy New Year! May you own full of wealth and health! --

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