Mom keep saying things that are of no use, and is past in the past. Always. It's obviously useless. She likes to nag, whenever something fails. She likes to blame, whenever dad and me make mistakes. She likes to exaggerate, and then regret, then blame others and herself, for useless things and past issues, or past event. It's depressing and killing. A failure's trait. She likes to toture me with her secular values. She likes to place value on me by superficial achievements. She likes to force me to do things that I don't like to do. Killing my nature of sanity, I go insane. Insane!!! She can never change. She is past 50. I have no choice but to endure the torture. I have to suck the medicine. However, she is still a very kind and nice person. For this sake, I have to endure all, because it's worth it. Although I am insane because of her, she is still my mom, who loves me most in this world. I wish I were never born, sometimes. The deeper you are hurt, the closer you are to the truth. ※ 引述《celestial09 (Koouos :D)》之銘言： : Mom is here again. Peaking me deliberately. With the love she thought she had. : Blaming again. My neurons are burning crazy. Yet I cannot do anything : I have NO CHOICE because she's mom. I can only be silent. : I have no personal space. : I am so painful for this torture her secularity and the opposition of beauty. : Pain, pain, pain is what I feel. : I cannot bear it anymore, but I am birdy cast in the Cage. : Nagging, nagging every day. : Blaming, blaming every day. : Mom has no sensitivity, nor could she sense how other people feel. : SHE HAS NO SENSE, nor sensitivity. : When can I kill myself? : I don't know. Everyday I am with her, I feel like I want to escape. : Yet in the same time, I drain myself in this mixture of Love and Hate. : Calling my insanity to drill out of the spell. -- -TRUTH is the absolute Beauty embedded in mind- --

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