This is purely excruciating. I have no where to express it but here... so basically it's the first time i feel so strongly about this person. To be honest i'm the kind that only enjoy games. Coz i'm scared of being in a relationship for various reasons. (does sound kind of cliche eh?) And this guy...I know he's kind of after another girl and I'm just trying to be friends with him. But dam it's way easier to say than do all the time. It's the first time i ever had butterflies even. So I said to myself, hey it's ok to like somebody and you can just totally keep the feelings to yourself. I AM keeping it to myself but it kills me to think of him day and night and keep staring at the phone just like those stupid girls who do the big no-nos in 'he's just not that into you'! I can dare say I know how the game works pretty well but god...this is not good. And keep liking the guy would do me no good either especially when I'm in the last year of my college and I've been unable to concentrate just because of the stupid one-sided affection. I've been trying to get away from thsi feeling but I failed. I do see his flaws but it's not quite drawing my feelings back. I guess the only way would be for him to get the girl he's interested in... who's just not me. Yeah, i think the reason I'm suffering too much is just because I'm still clinging on to the tiny thread of hope that he might like me back. God I hate being in love. ew. I now see why wise men don't fall in love. --

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