※ 引述《mindfuck (真情)》之銘言： : I am studying my MA now. : The point is, I took up the offer : to stdudy in the different field from my college last year. : It did not undergo thorough consideration as it comes to switch to a new field : I majored English in my collge. : Now, however, I study Business Administration, which always makes me : feel I am not really into this field. I do not regret that I chose business : filed because I know that some day I will work in this field. : Frankly speaking, I did not take many classes that are related to business : field in my college years. I thought it was hard and time-consuming : to take those classes. I also switched to quite different field in my master. I switched from computer science to a more biology related field. Technically it was inter-disciplinary, but it was still difficult, especially when I didn't regard myself to be good in computer science either. Boy I felt like a complete moron for nearly a year. The knowledge gap was huge. It was also hard to catch up some basic knowledge when you were not under formal basic training. And as a master, you usually don't have a chance, as you're expected to complete some higher goals. For half a year I had completely no idea what our laboratory was doing. Even now (I am in PHD program now), I am still pretty clueless on a lot of stuffs. Partly because I still haven't gone through the training required, and the other reason is I lost some of the interest in certain area. Biologists and computer science people have vastly diffierent kind of mindsets in working toward the same goal. I came in trying to understand that, and I came out understanding myself better on the type of approach I prefer to take in my research. : Now, however, I deeply have a thought in mind that I : should have attended several of these courses. Never would I know : in the past that I will become sorry that I did not take : those courses when I enter this new field in the future. Oh, there was often no way to know that beforehand so you should not regret what you couldn't have possibly foresaw. :) : I feel like a mute. I can not take up my courage to speak out. I have a strong : feeling that I am not good enough and may get bad feedback from my classmates. I can imagine how your situation would be like, at least I am in a inter-disciplinary field and there are others like me. Yours is a bigger leap. I don't know about other fields, but ours has this class called a seminar in which students have to present a publication in class. Professors often encourage us to speak out and ask questions. But in my master years I hardly ever did. If I didn't understand anything the speaker said, I couldn't ask any questions! Even if I did have question, it might be stupid. One of the prof. often encourages us to ask question and says, "there is no dumb question," which I replied once with "but there are dumb people". (joke) Anyway, I would be very afraid to ask any question to anyone in your situation. But you know it's better to act dumb now then later. : Since I entered this field, I gradually feel that my confidence is fading : away with the passage of time. Oh..same here. It's like, maybe this is not my type of vegetable! =( Sometimes I felt my computer science is worse than other biologist. That's the worst of all...It's like I should give myself two years to do nothing but read books. It takes some time before things clear up more. At least you'll have a broader reach comparing to other classmates in college. : Now, the first year of my MA is going to be very near to the end.What have I : learned? What have I become as I wish myself to be? : The last thing, I need more time to learn how to cooperate with others : and how to think more broadly. I prefer to do things all by myself. You just have to keep on hanging there to get what you want. Be active and seek out. --

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