It's been more than a year now since we broke up, but is it actually true? I mean after the day that she told me that she is seeing someone, she is still in touch with me. And when we are together we still acted like we are couples even though she is with the other person! I don't blame her for choosing him over me, there is no wrong and right in a relationship. But when time goes by I guess someone needed to make a move that this has got to stop, so I decided to mention that if she really likes the other person or chosed him over me that she needs to respect him and start to treat him with more care and love. I couldn't believe that those words came out of my mouth and she was shocked and told me that this is the time that we will definately not see each other for the rest of our lives. We were really sad, but it really has to stop. I thought that I could live a life that I don't need to think of her that much anymore, but I was wrong after a couple of days she told me that she wants to be back with me, I was shocked wanting to give a "YES" answer but I know if I had said yes, it would be my emotions taking over my actions because I have loved her dearly since the first day we went out even when she was seeing the other person! So I told her to think clearly and if that is what she really wants to do, then after a week I told her yes I want to get back with her and take care of her like how I did in the past because the main reason that she wants to be with me is how I took care of her, gave her happiness, gave her whatever she wants and being with me didn't give her any pressure at all! But guess what, when I said yes that I want to be with her, she said that I must wait for her, after she graduate from school and finds a job then we can start our relatioship. Well it is her goal so I respect it, so I said ok, I will wait for her. To make things short, she has now graduated and works in a really nice company, but she still doesn't want to give me an answer! Till this day, I am still waiting for her answer, my heart hurts it really does, but what can I do besides waiting or just giving up on her, right? To be exactly on the month that we broke up was last year September, I can't believe that I am still so much in love with her for so long...! --

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