Another night of insomnia. Took my shower at 01:30 after finished watching House of Wax in the morning. As usual I sneaked into my warm bed but failed to fall asleep. I admonished my cerebrum against wondering. However, in vain again. It was already February and the commencement is getting closer and closer. Again I felt like a drifting boat with aimless anchor. Well,I wish I can do something to change my current situations. My room was surrounded by a multitude of extra reading books, mostly literary works and I got drowsy with all of these. These books were like the most terrible chaos I've never seen in my life. They might be one of the indirect reasons to cause my insomnia. Now I was sitting right in front of computer right now again and suffered from this weird insomnia and wondered about my eccentric life. I strongly believed my anxiety and worry kept me awake all night long and goddamned it I really wanna got rid of this !!! How I appreciate those who were catapulted into dreamlands immediately after lying on the bed. The one thing I hated so much about myself was my staring at the pitch-dark room,seeking the dim light and searching for the trail of any ghosts or spirits. For Christ's sake, liz, aren't you sick of such things like these enough? Why can't you just throw them away and bump into your dreams? Anyway, I think I'd better drown myself in fatigue then I can sink into my bed. --

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