I'm still on Dec. 25 in this small town. Today, since the time was far before the daybreak, I was chatting with girl in my room. She's just eighteen, and I'm almost 21. Well, she is almost 19 though since our birthday has only one day different. I had a crush on her when I saw her at first time. Otherwise, She caught my sight while she was in a performance about eight months ago. She is tall and well-matured, and she was the only Indian among the southeastern Asian students. I saw many pretty dancing carriages from her and her two soul-stirring eyes, but I did not try to know her until last or this month. It's so ridiculous because I just knew her name within a month, but I had held her on my bed on Christmas' Eve, last night, after we chatted. I'm mostly like a man who is good at using tricks to pure girls, who doesn't have lots of experieces of dating. Hahaha, it does not mean I am evil, you may say I am the person who only know those tricks which attract young girls' hearts rather than saying I am dirty. I made my mind earlier about ten months ago. I said to myself not to play love games with people again. Because I know it hurts others and also myself, what I said after that was to find a girl seriously for the next relationship. I dunno if I made it or not, but I will try with my new little young girl. I'll just follow the direction of the river of time goes, then I'll pray that I would not hurt her again, and wish my mind could be much more matured. I still cannot forget many girls I have dated before, but right now she the young lady gets ninety percent of the attention from the person who has learned a lot from those old relationships. I would try to be a better man. Pika 23:00 12/25 --

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