◎歌名：Hard Love https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ejMPz5yOb0 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P5HhEMhcq1o ◎创作者：Bob Franke ◎演唱者：Bob Franke ◎歌词： 　　　I remember growing up like it was only yesterday 　　　Mom & Daddy tried their best to guide me on my way 　　　But the hard times & the liquor drove the easy love away 　　　And the only love I knew about was hard love 　　　It was hard love, every hour of the day 　　　When Christmas to my birthday was a million years away 　　　And the fear that came between them drove the tears into my play 　　　There was love in daddy's house, but it was hard love 　　　And I recall the gentle courtesy you gave me as I tried 　　　To dissemble in politeness all the love I felt inside 　　　And for every song of laughter was another song that cried 　　　This ain't no easy weekend, this is hard love 　　　It was hard love, every step of the way 　　　Hard to be so close to you, so hard to turn away 　　　And when all the stars and sentimental songs dissolved to day 　　　There was nothing left to sing about but hard love 　　　So I loved you for your courage, and your gentle sense of shame 　　　And I loved you for your laughter and your language and your name 　　　And I knew it was impossible, but I loved you just the same 　　　Though' the only love I gave to you was hard love 　　　It was hard love, it was hard on you, I know 　　　When the only love I gave to you was love I couldn't show 　　　You forgave the heart that loved you as your lover turned to go 　　　Leaving nothing but the memory of hard love 　　　So I'm standing in this phone booth with a dollar and a dime 　　　Wondering what to say to you to ease your troubled mind 　　　For the Lord's cross might redeem us, but our own just wastes our time 　　　And to tell the two apart is always hard, love 　　　So I'll tell you that I love you even though I'm far away 　　　And I'll tell you how you change me as I live from day to day 　　　How you help me to accept myself and I won't forget to say 　　　Love is never wasted, even when it's hard love 　　　Yes, it's hard love, but it's love all the same 　　　Not the stuff of fantasy, but more than just a game 　　　And the only kind of miracle that's worthy of the name 　　　For the love that heals our lives is mostly hard love ◎推荐理由或同志心情故事 　有机会接触到这首歌是国中时阅读到一本小说，也叫做 Hard Love. Hard Love (1999), by Ellen Wittlinger http://books.simonandschuster.com/Hard-Love/Ellen-Wittlinger/9780689841545 Ellen 曾回答为何要写这本小说， What inspired John and Marisol’s story? 　I had always wanted to write a story in which a gay or lesbian teen 　character was already out of the closet and comfortable with his or her 　sexuality. Up until that point, most books for YAs with gay protagonists were 　about their coming out. I wanted to write the NEXT chapter. Both Marisol and 　John sprang full-blown into my imagination and their chemistry was great. 　Because of who Marisol is, the story's ending is inevitable, to me, yet many 　readers are upset by it. Which isn't a bad thing either. 　 小说主角 John 是个有点厌世、有些孤僻的中二异男高中生， 而 Marisol 则个刚申请上大学，在摸索性向的 lesbian. 他们因为写杂志 (类似当年的笔友吧) 认识，成为无话不谈的好朋友。 John 喜欢上了 Marisol，但 Marisol 无法以"情人的喜欢" 喜欢 John. 这首歌是一个局外人 (如果没记错的话，这个局外人女生喜欢 John XD) 看出 John 对 Marisol 有好感时，唱给 John 听的。 毕竟 John 和 Marisol 根本不可能在一起。 阅读歌词 (那个年代没有 audio book 唱给你听:P) 时， 　就觉得这些词虽然用字简单，却探进了我的胸口，抚平了许多伤口。 (当时哪来的伤痛我也不知道，就是深深地被这样凄美的歌词感动了XD) 当年自己用流行曲调套进这些词乱哼，怎麽听都不妥， 直到上网找了 Bob Franke 在户外唱的版本(有鸭子叫XD)， 听他用略带年纪的嗓音诠释，才明了，越是简单文字，越能乘载如此沉重温柔的情愫。 (曾试图把这本小说翻译成中文，可是後来考基测太忙了ˊˋ 就只翻了两三章) (有阵子好期待这本小说会拍成电影喔>"< 里面的情感刻划朴实却吸引人) 上大学，沉潜批踢踢拉版也两三年了， 看了好多版友的故事， 有些是面对家人不谅解的深夜伤心讨拍文， 或是(前)女友因为 年纪/家里逼迫/反正各种原因都有啦 分手踏上异性恋婚姻， 当然也有把大家闪瞎空白文XD 所以趁这个机会把很喜欢的两段歌词献给大家:) So I loved you for your courage, and your gentle sense of shame 　　　And I loved you for your laughter and your language and your name 　　　And I knew it was impossible, but I loved you just the same 　　　Though' the only love I gave to you was hard love 我们都知道，情慾是流动的，喜欢女生，喜欢男生，都没有所错。 喜欢的就是你这个人。 你的善良、正直，你的腼腆、你的笑容， 就算那些小脾气、小糊涂，和数不尽的小缺点，都甘愿承受 ── 因为我喜欢你。 　　　Yes, it's hard love, but it's love all the same 　　　Not the stuff of fantasy, but more than just a game 　　　And the only kind of miracle that's worthy of the name 　　　For the love that heals our lives is mostly hard love 而身为非主流异性恋的我们，面对爱情，除了与对方磨合外， 还有更加严苛的挑战: 家人的不支持、外界的眼光、社会国家不友善的政策， 但这更坚定了我们对彼此的爱 <3 支持婚姻平权。 --- 其实我最想要写的是 Vienna Teng 的 City Hall， 可是版上已经有人介绍了:P --

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