http://tinyurl.com/kz8hbfl 咪咪在赌城造势当天深夜，接受英国《每日邮报》专访； 首次透露当年流产，以及最近风风雨雨的心路历程。 "I've bruised so many times but it hasn't stopped me": In her most revealing interview yet, Mariah Carey discusses her miscarriage and the loneliness of mega stardom 【以下重点节录】 1. 谈到内心孤独：不容易相信别人，但奶粉是安全感的来源，因为奶粉不会利用她。 "Stardom is a magical yet freakish situation at times. It's a cliché but very true that at times you feel so alone even when you're surrounded by so many people. Trust is not very easy for me at all. I want to be a trusting person but I've been bruised so many times – not to sound woe-is-me about my life. "I'm thankful for my fans who make up for the lack of closeness I feel to most people who start out as friends and ultimately take advantage of me. I'm a very loyal person and it takes a lot for me to actually un-friend someone." She pauses. Reflects. "I'm actually very loyal, to my detriment. Yeah, the past few years have had their ups and downs." 2. 聊到离婚：从不在双胞胎面前掉泪，孩子是无辜的，怕自己一哭就停不下来。 It's been a difficult time, which Mariah has steadfastly refused to speak about. Nick is, after all, the father of her four-year-old twins Moroccan and Monroe. She's never shed a tear in front of them. She says she daren't. ‘I don't want them to see a mother who's saying, “I'm going through this. I'm going through that.” They're babies – innocents. They don't have to see that yet – if ever. So I try to keep everything together because, in some instances, if you cry you're not going to stop crying.’ 为了小孩，愿意和前夫一起过节 (讲到一半突然唱起Side Effects副歌 XD)； 学会习惯小孩有时候不跟她住的日子。 Instead, she and Nick put their differences aside to share Thanksgiving, Christmas and Easter as a family. ‘Christmas was a rough time for me personally but I got through it and you know what? It was for the kids. That was the whole thing. I have a song called Side Effects which goes, “I kept my tears inside because I knew if I started I'd keep crying for the rest of my life with you. I finally built up the strength to walk away, don't regret it but I still live with the side effects.”’ She looks down at her glass and her eyes mist over with the tears she won’t let fall. ‘I'm just getting used to when the kids have days out and overnight stays. I have to get used to that but I’m finding it hard. It is what it is. I want them to have great relationships with all their family and I wouldn’t want to do anything to undermine that.’ 3. 谈到流产： 当年和Nick恋爱六周後就结婚，虽然差了11岁，但咪咪觉得自己终於找到灵魂伴侣。 几个月後的圣诞前夕咪咪怀孕了，却在前往亚斯本当天的超音波检查，发现自己流产。 咪咪说，流产是她人生中最低潮的一段； 当时忙着宣传Touch My Body， 激瘦的咪咪过度运动、做瑜珈，却没有人告诉她过度运动这样对孕妇不好； 之後怀了双胞胎，便异常戒慎恐惧。 She and Nick married in a secret ceremony at her home in the Bahamas (there are also homes in New York, Los Angeles, now Las Vegas and... I lose count) following a whirlwind six-week romance. He's 11 years her junior but she truly believed – following an earlier desperately unhappy five-year marriage to former Sony chief Tommy Mottola, who launched her career – that she'd finally found her soulmate. Within a few short months she was delighted to discover she was going to be a mother, then devastated when an ultrasound scan revealed she had miscarried the day they were due to travel to Aspen in Colorado to celebrate Christmas with friends. ‘I was going to tell them I was pregnant and make little baby ornaments with them because obviously I didn't know [what had happened] until the scan. That was a difficult Christmas. It was huge. There are really no words and it's difficult to talk about. 'That was the lowest point for me,' she says in a whisper. 'I wasn't sure why it happened. I was working on Touch My Body [a song from her 11th Album E=MC2 ] so I was very thin and working out a lot. I didn't know you had to stop exercising and stop doing yoga when you’re pregnant. Nobody told me these things. 顺利怀孕後，咪咪得了产前高血压、糖尿病 (有请爱摸医师详解)， 医生建议怀孕32周进行人工催生，但咪咪无法接受孩子被这样对待， 於是又在床上躺了三个礼拜，努力撑到35周； 在这段期间里，咪咪在腰上绑了iPod让宝宝听歌。 咪咪说，这段怀孕过程，是她这辈子感受到与家人连结最强的一段时间。 Mariah suffered with pre-eclampsia (a pregnancy disorder involving high blood pressure) and gestational , which causes women without diabetes to develop high blood-glucose levels during pregnancy. Doctors suggested inducing labour at 32 weeks but she couldn’t bear the thought of having her babies taken from her and placed in neonatal care, so she rested in bed for three weeks to give them the best chance she could. ‘I wore a bellyband with an iPod attached to it so the babies could feel the music. I managed to hang on for 35 weeks because I just didn’t want to see them go through things they didn’ t have to go through.’ 4. 接着聊到一年半前的肩膀脱臼事件。 受伤隔天与纽约爱乐合作的慈善演出(为Hurricane Sandy灾民募款)， 不顾医生阻止，咪咪还是硬上。 My All: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4xJ-BhGvZNc Looking In: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TcYjv8sT2s4 #Beautiful: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lE34TWLR8JQ Hero: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dRllzU8L9do (Looking In 太催泪了，卫生纸来一下谢谢) Among those hard times was an accident on the set of a music video 18 months ago that left her with a dislocated shoulder. She was due to perform with the New York Philharmonic Orchestra in a fundraiser for the victims of Hurricane Sandy the next night. Against the advice of doctors, she went ahead. 当时会哭，是因为太痛了；医生说她的伤势严重性等同於被一台卡车撞到。 受伤当时连医生都被吓到，因为他们在咪咪受伤的手臂上，无法找到脉搏； 她一度担心自己手臂从此无法正常使用，幸好後来靠物理治疗师的协助，慢慢复原。 'I didn't not want to do it so I performed in a sling with bruises all over me in this sparkly dress. I was in tears. It was moving, but the tears weren't out of self-pity. I was in pain and singing a very sad song. The doctors said the injury was the equivalent of being hit by a truck. They were looking at me in shock because they couldn't find a pulse in this arm. ‘I was bedridden for a while, but I didn't really want to talk about it because I was worried I wouldn't regain the use of the arm. Being stuck in bed was terrible but I had really good physical therapists who came and moved the arm up and down for me to retrain my mind in that muscle memory. I got through it but it wasn't easy.’ 目前手臂仍无法运作自如，对此咪咪无奈耸肩。 (编按：所以大家别再苛责她的体态了，咪咪加油！XD) She shakes her head and sips her wine. ‘I'm still recovering from it now in terms of getting my body back to where it was. Before that I was in a really good place and I think, “Why?” She slaps the extra inches of flesh she’s trying to shift in the way we women do. Then she shrugs. 5. 咪咪坦承去年是难过的一年，但老娘不是被吓大的，谁也挡不住我。 孩子是帮助她复原的最大动力， 但咪咪也觉得一边唱歌、一边创作、又要处理和小孩分离的苦，令她心烦； 每次与孩子相聚，一边想弥补他们，又怕他们因此被宠坏； 咪咪尽量在家工作，但即便如此，因为房子太大，还是觉得和他们有距离。 甚至有时候为了护嗓，只能自私丢下孩子去睡觉。 'There's a reason for everything and that's how I look at it. Last year was not a pleasant year for me, but I've had unpleasant times before and it hasn't stopped me.' Being a mum has helped Mariah overcome everything she’s faced recently. There's constant conflict between her need to sing, her need to create and the dreadful wrench of being apart from her children. ‘It's tough because you want to make it up to them for when you're not there but you don't want to spoil them. I work at home whenever I can but even that's being away from them because it's a big house. And I have to be selfish sometimes with my voice and say, “I have to go to bed now.”’ 6. 咪咪育儿经： 咪咪最近很喜欢「柏灵顿：熊爱趴趴走」这部电影， 因为这是小时候爸爸念给她听的睡前故事。 她试着给小孩一些规定，譬如学会说请、谢谢这一类的话， 她也不让小孩在电脑前面太久，希望孩子们有与人互动的健全人格。 Their latest thing is Paddington Bear, she says. ‘Have you seen the movie? Isn't it great? I loved it and I didn't think I would but it was something my dad read to me when I was little. We love Paddington. Don’t you hate having to be the one to say, “You have to go to bed now?” But I try to give them as many boundaries as possible – everything from, “Please” and "Thank you" to "Not too long on the computer" because it sucks the life out of us. I'd rather they're interacting and have a personality... 她已经和女儿开始用唱歌对话了 譬如说，女儿会对她唱 "I love Mummy" 这感觉像是两人一起写歌，而梦露就像小时候的她。 'Sometimes I sing with my daughter. We sing in conversation, "I love Mummy," and I’ll sing back to her. We have a whole conversation in song. When you're doing that it’s really writing a song. It’s freestyling. 2009年演了珍爱人生之後，有许多电影邀约，後来因为怀孕而放弃。 最後声明自己目前单身，跟Brett就像兄妹一样，不是情侣啦。 'That's the new version of me as a little kid hiding and writing music, but I still do that. I still sit up and write and work on music and love it. I use it as escapism. I love all forms of creativity. I still love acting. I did Precious [the 2009 film for which she was highly praised in her role as a dowdy social worker] and got lots of offers, but then I got pregnant and so I wasn't able to explore them, as I didn’t want to tell the world in the beginning because with twins it's a high-risk pregnancy.’ 'Brett and I are like brother and sister,' she says. 'I think we have a similar work ethic and are both eternal kids.' So you're not with anyone? 'No, I’m definitely single.' Anyone you'd like to be with? She laughs. ‘ Drink your wine.' --

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