作者：Cris123 http://www.mjjcommunity.com/forum/showthread.php?t=72213 I don’t know why I’m writing this long story. Perhaps because I am afraid of forgetting, of letting go. Constantly thinking and writing of him keeps me sane. And because I want to share with you how I perceived Michael, the wonderful, incredible man, behind the superstar. I know you understand his true essence and need some peace in this crazy aftermath. I was a fan just like most of us: fell in love with his voice first, during the Dangerous tour, and followed him from afar, always in my heart, since then. For various reasons, I wasn’t fortunate enough to be able to travel to his various appearances. But this June, the stars aligned for me and I was able to go to LA and meet him. I hang out with some of his dearest fans who had been by his side for years, loyal, discreet and showering him with love and attention. They are wonderful people, united by a common passion. On my first trip there I saw him briefly every day, going to or coming from the rehearsals, movie studio or the movies (he saw UP). I was in heaven when I held his hand and got chills when I heard his truly angelic voice in my ear. He was amazing: gracious, patient, always wanting to let fans know they are the most important thing besides his kids. No matter how tired he was (because he indeed used to work more than 8 hours each day), he would at least acknowledge us with a waive and a smile. From the first day I felt a burning need to just thank him for everything and shower him with gifts, supporting letters and words of love. I gave him letters, pictures, classical music CDs (the Lonely Shepherd, David Garret, etc). One day I had the immense privilege of briefly talking to him alone. I talked about the concerts, thanking him for his hard work and reinforcing to him that he has this unique power to make millions of people happy just by his essence, his presence. I said that despite this, what matters to me is that he was happy. He said he will be if we are happy. I almost cried then at his unearthly selflessness if it weren’t for my nerves. “He is so beautiful, inside and out” is what was going through my mind that moment. He thanked me and said I love you a few times, with a peaceful demeanor. In one of my previous letters I had described to him how I envisioned his grand finale in the last concerts, the songs and the imagery and message that could have solidified him in history as the greatest entertainer. But guess what, he said these concerts were not about him, but about the world and the message of love….He is human, but indeed a prophet of love to me. This exchange really reinforced that Michael is a special, chosen soul and I was fortunate to see first hand this side of him, above and beyond his superstar persona. This is a priceless memory, but the funniest/ silliest is when two of my friends convinced me to join them serenade the whole I just can’t stop loving you to Michael twice, near his garden and then on intercom In his last two days in this world, I gave him two letters and two gifts: a fantasy book for him and the kids and a shirt he actually wore to rehearsals and on stage on Wednesday. Fate would have it that the last time he danced on stage he would wear a gift from fans with a message for fans- see the pic below… The last time I saw him on Wednesday night he smiled, waived, pumped his fist and said I love you. He was in good spirits. My last words to him were “love you so much Michael”. He is unlike any other. He read our letters and I got confirmation. We really mattered to him. In fact, in his words, “we were his world”. Because he left with these nice words in his mind, I will share a few highlights with you in a subsequent post, because it’s about you too. Finally and most importantly, this may bring some solace to you, knowing that he didn’t rise to Heaven without a prayer and feeling loved. His kids were praying inside, while two of his fans were praying outside that morning, very hard, fearful, with all the soul. In the end, he wasn’t alone. He was close enough to people he loved the most, people for whom he gave his everything, even his life: his kids and his fans. That’s why I’m sure he will continue to be with us forever. But we need to continue to make our King proud and carry forward his legacy, as his army of love… 看完整个很难过。Michael还是那个Michael，从未改变过。 找到翻译： 我无法名状自己为什麽要写下这麽长的故事。也许是由於我担心自己会淡忘，会就这麽让 回忆远去。日夜念写Michael让我更加清醒。我想和大家分享我所认识的这个Michael，刨 去超级巨星的光环，这是一个神奇优秀的人，我想你们都了解真实的他，狂热之後都需要 一点平静。 我和大多数歌迷一样，起先对其天籁之音着迷，那还是在危险之旅期间，自从那时候起我 就一直追随他。处於各种原因，我无法有幸跟随其出现在众多场合中。但是，今年六月， 我能去洛杉矶见他，我和他的一些死忠歌迷一起，他们是多年一直追随在Michael身边的 歌迷。他们都是很棒的人，都被同一种激情所联系。 我一次经历中，我几乎每天都可以见到他，他来回去才彩排、摄影棚或者影院（他看了《 飞屋环游记》）。当我抓住他的手时，我感觉自己进了天堂，尤其是在听到他的真实声音 後，简直就是天使之声。他真的是很杰出，优雅，耐心，总是想让歌迷们知道除了孩子之 外歌迷就是最重要的。不管他多累（因为他确实曾经每天工作八个多小时），他都会至少 用一个挥手或者微笑向我们表示。第一天起，我就觉得一定要感谢这个人，要给予他礼物 与支持。我给了他信件、图片、古典音乐碟（孤独的牧羊人，大卫盖里特等）。 有天，我有幸和他单独谈话。我谈到了演唱会，并对其努力表示感谢，并只用其本性其存 在就让无数人快活，他就有这中独特魅力。我还说尽管如此，对我来说追重 要的是 Michael要快乐才行。他说如果我们高兴他就会高兴。当时我差点哭了出来。我当时就想 他是一个内外皆美的人。他感谢了我，说了几遍我爱你，一种平稳的姿态。在我以前写的 信中，我向他描述了我是怎麽预想他最後的宏大演出，作为最杰出的艺人，其歌曲和信箱 讯息等。但你们能猜测得到吗，他说这些演唱会与他无关，而是与这个世界和爱的资讯有 关—— 他是一个凡人，但是他对我来说确实是爱的先知。这种交换真的让Michael成为一 个特殊的，被选中的灵魂，我有幸投透过其巨星光环看到这一面。这是无价记忆，但是最 搞笑的是当我的两个朋友要我加入他们，一起对Michael唱整曲《I just can’t stop loving you》两遍，就在在他的花园旁边，用对讲机。 在他生命的最後两天，我给他寄了两封信，和两件礼物：一本给他以及孩子的书；一件T 恤，而且他还真的穿了这件T恤参加了周三的彩排。一定是上天的旨意，让他在最後一次 舞蹈中穿着歌迷的礼物，并传达一种资讯给歌迷。 最後一次见到他是在星期三的晚上，他微笑着，挥着手，握紧拳，说他爱我们。他那时精 神很好，我对他说得最後一句话是，“Michael，我们很爱你。” 他和其他明星不一样，他会读我们寄给他的信，我收到过确认的。我们歌迷对他来说确实 是重要的。事实上，他曾说过，“歌迷就是他的世界。”因为他将这些话记在了心上，我 会在後续的帖中和你们分享一些，因为这也关於你。 最後，也是最重要的是知道他去天堂的时候是有人为他祈祷并爱着他的，这可能会带给我 些安慰。他的子女们在家里祈祷，他的两个歌迷在那天早上祈祷，很用功地祈祷。最後时 刻他不是孤身一人。他和他爱的人很近，他给了这些人自己的所有，甚至是生命：孩子和 歌迷。这就是我确信他会继续和我们在一起。但是我们需要让我们的国王自豪，让其传说 延续。 --

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