Hi there. I would like to share my thought with you. I am kind of related to educational field before, because I majored in English Teaching back in colledge. However, the timing was not good for me and my classmate. Under the competitive situation, just a few of my classmates got to be a teacher. So I think you are really lucky. As to wishing to have closer relationship with your students and colleagues, I would like to suggest you not to think too much. Even though you are in school, you are "working" in school, not studying in school. And the society is just like this, the relationship between colleagues is mostly superficial. After I finished my internship, I entered into a trading company, most people are nice there, but I feel the same way you feel. It's hard to share with my colleagues like the time when we were students. So I think you just need to remain good relationship with them but don't wish too much on the closeness. Just let nature take its course, that would be good enough. I think it's really hard to find what we really want. Even a old man has a lot to regret about the past. However, it's always good to be aware of the concept of "What I really want?" and try to find an answer. Maybe in the end you still can not find a definate answer, but you gain a lot from the process of finding and pursuing. Isn't it? If you find what you want to do, you may apply for suspension without payment. It's not quitting your job, but you can be able to acheive something you want during that time. ※ 引述《inferetial (promising future)》之铭言： : Some boardmates have been discussing the topic of career. : Those who haven't graduated yet are worried about their career plan. : For me, I have been a career woman, working regularly and stably. : But I don't like my working environment sincerely. : No one understand me and I have no one to talk to. : I used to study at Taipei city but I work at a small town. : Now I work as a high school teacher. : People say I am lucky enough to get the teaching job at a high school. : There is no doubt I am lucky beacuse it's hard to get a teaching job now. : I told myself I should be thankful and devoted to my job. : Yes, I do. I have been trying for over one year. : But I was constantly weighed down my working environment. : It's hard to make a breakthrough in my life. : I get along well with my students and colleagues. : But the relationship is far from family, relatives and friendship. : It's merely on the surface. : I can not share my sorrow with them. : They belive I am happy and nothing to complain about life. : But in my deepest heart, I feel limited and unhappy. : Day after day, I wonder if my life can go like this. : I have no courage to quit my job beacuse I have no other surviving skills. : Besides, my family would be furious if I quitted. : Even though I am not a young student, I can't set a definite goal for future. : I feel bad. What can I wish for? : What's self-realization? -- ╭═══☆ Fly me to the moon══════★╮ ║ Let me play among the stars ║ ║ Let me see what spring is like ║ ★ On Jupiter and Mars ║ ║ In other words, hold my hand ║ ╰══ In other words, darling,kiss me ══☆ --

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