it is like a common cliche. why do i say "cliche,"becuase i think it is usual in everyone's life but i could not totally forget about it till recent days. I struggled for several months, finally clears my bitter memory. if anyone trying to escape from these kind of past memory , this is not a good choice*^^* ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ the beginnging was very easy, two people fell in love due to loneliness, but they seemed unaware of the essence of their relationship; as others cases or hstorical events ever told me, a fault will cause a series of faults lately. tracing back our story, initially i made a mistake , and i was lost. because.. i paid more attention on our relationship ..and i also underestimated the strength of our relationship... it is shame and sad to admit i am nothing to him.. either in the position of ex-girlfriend or that of a friend i almost lost confidence since your imagination always reminds me that I were "FAT"(156cm..50kg)..i were pessimistic i depended on you too much ...i were ....whatever.. as"legally blonde" described .. i will never be good enought for you right ? every of my frineds, who has known me for longer than 5 yeras ,thinks i am brave , i am independent , i am opitimistic ....why only you can hurt others without any consideration... then ..if you lost patient on the relationship how could you hurt others continuously ..cruelty.. i do not really need you , do you know?! whatever......you were like a nightmare to me... but things will always turn right ~~~~~wont't they the last time i talked to you you told a lot of stupid reasons.... you misunderstood our friendship as love you knew you treated me really bad , but you regard me as a friend not a lover, so you could not treat me better(?) you have a girlfriend right now, just half year after we broke up and you said ..this time you will have longer relationship with her becasue we were just good friends...and you are in love actually now i were not sad anymore, i were angry when you told me so... what kind of friends(with me) can you live together for eight months ? did you know what were you talking about ? it was cold ....i were cold from the bottom of my heart but i soon realized that i was like a fool i should have known what kind of people you are .. not just repeatedly hypnotized myself into receiving your lines and stayed at the stupid circle do you know....i even told myself ...i must be allured by your car by anything you have ... except you... otherwise....i will not make friends with people like you ... always finding reasons to protect yourself.. never taking resposibility .....and like to degrade my dignity and confidence +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ well...you said ...we might be good friends.. and you wnated to be friends with me....again but ....it is impossible i am immature and i did not love you as i imagine so i block you again and i hope i will never see you again you are even not a good friend..... one year and 4 months... i experienced a weired love story a weired progress of heartbroken and found our what kind of people you are i am typing here without tears ....i am glad i am better wish i could meet a good man*^^* ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ --

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