※ 引述《obiter (失望...)》之铭言： : Mmm... I've been posting on Engtalk a lot lately! : Anyway, I've been very unhappy recently, : and just don't really know what to do with myself. : This morning, I went to church with my friend. : While it's not the first time that I've been to church, : I'm not a Christian, : and my past experiences with church adn Christians have been : rather negative. : But somehow today was different. : The songs made me feel sad, : the words that the priest said made me feel sad, : and on several occasions, : I was horrified to find my eyes filled with tears! : I kept on blinking them back, : not wanting to embarrass myself. : But at the end, : the priest said: "If you're here for teh first time today, : if you came here with a friend, : you are very lucky, : because your friend loves you very much : that they want to share God's love with you... : or something like that, I'm not quite sure, : because by then I was crying. : I was so embarrassed, : but the amazing thing is I later realized that my friend : didn't even see me cry. : By the time we were leaving I was OK then. : I was glad that my friend didn't notice, : although that did prove how unobservant he was! : I would've had a hard time explaining why I cried. : I can't really say that I completely agreed with what was said. : I still don't think all the answers have been provided. : The real reason that I cried was because of how : true the pain and suffering comment was, not matter how trivial it may seem, : and it made me realized how much I had been hiding from everyone, : how I had tried to appear strong, : as if nothing is wrong. : Even though I'm a girl, : I've always appeared confident adn indenpendent, : and I feel bound to keep up that image, : even at times when I feel complete opposite. well, even i am not Christian, but when i was in Aus, i'd like to go to church with all of my friends.. reason?!.. no reason, cuz' it's a only place that i can keep peace on my mind. and receive the blessing from someone that u don't know abt them it was azmaing to me. anyway, in this reality, i think all ppl have to pretend to wear a mask not only just keeping urself saftly but also hiding the real one that u dont wanna show outto others. This is a crucial world, of course. if u can't stand something, i think u need to find someone who can talk with u DO NOT keep the pain and stress in ur heart. it will be like a volcano, when it's exploded u can image what will be happend Cheer up, girl this world is still pretty, and u have to do something for human being (i always keep this positive thinking by myself) anyway, just hope u can become better than b4 share with all guys and bless u all With Best Regards, --

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